life's been so packed.
i packed it so as not to feel the emptiness that would follow with nothing to do after tl.
and yes i still have no pictures!
so i cant post a picture of my girls.
im sorry.
pictures i have to post and talk about:
- batam trip
-last day
-grad night
-my girls, my husband, my gf and our clique, my father and my tl sisters.
- my date with drey (:

life's a little empty without tung ling.
i miss the laughs i used to get everyday.
i miss the way we started our day with Christ.
i miss my girls, my husband, my gf and my sisters.
hmmm, let me see. i felt like i needed to blog about a lot of stuff.
BUT I CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT SO THIS IS GONNA BE RANDOM
well anyway, i met my sisters yesterday to visit steph.
it felt good to see them, as tho we were all still in tung ling.
had dinner and then esther sent me home (:
she's so nice and cute i love her so much, i wanna hug her everyday!
joan was so happy cause she was early! so cute. she and carol can compete.
see who's on time more. okay not as if im always early.
blah. i love stephy's doggie. she's so cute. i wanna kidnap her!
sigh. i really pray and hope we get to meet even after our respective stuff starts?
thanks esther for yesterday's dinner (: ENJOY KL.

met drey for lunch and sorta tea today.
talked for so super long!
about our guys and our future plans and sailing and ahah the sailing politics.
hmm so surprised about what i heard. kinda disappointed in him.
and then she convinced me that i should marry an air force guy.
FOR THE TOTALLY WRONG REASONS LA.
haha. but i know she loves her guy.
real love? im not sure if i've ever found that.
even tho i've liked will for 4 years i know the feeling wasn't even close to love.
but yes, i am going to keep my eyes peeled for an air force guy who can get a scholarship.
rightt. after will. i know that i won't look for these sorta thing in a guy.
tho i was previously like that. okay maybe i still will. i don't know.
i mean i think the look is really important i don't know why.
not that he must be good looking but at least pleasing to MY eye.
so that i don't get shocks early in the morning when i wake up right.
BUT don't get the wrong idea, will is in no way good looking. REALLY.
but i will be happy looking at him everyday tho (:(:
today was so relaxed and unrushed and nice.
i love my darling drey. my pretty girl (:
(i'm not lesbian)
okay cause some people actually believe that i am. so weird. so NOT ME.

im so afraid that i'll feel so empty if i don't pack my days.
cause i hate that feeling of waking up and knowing i won't get to go back to tl.
of knowing i might not ever see some of them again.
so the job was kinda a blessing in disguise.
helps keep my mind off stuff.
pay's good and im so free. but yet im not happy.
as usual la, demanding me. always wanting this and that.
bernice is never satisfied.

joan, we haven't pampered ourselves for surviving!
maybe the bangkok trip. if we really go. haha. don't know what will happen to us man.
with esther and carol. the 2 crazies. but we have steph (:
whoever wants to can come (: (if we really go laa)

i really really have no idea what is going on
in my head and in your heart
i've been lying to everyone
and when left alone with the thought
it scares me that i might really feel a little for you


oaky sorry i cant remember all that im supposed to blog
and this is very very jumbled and i have no idea what im saying
sorry. there's so so much i wanna say. especially about my last day in tl and my thoughts about the whole thing.

my schedule: wed- outing with my tlbc YAY
thurs- lunch and don't know what else with him
- dinner with jeremy but i think its on sunday night
friday- family outing i think
sleepover at sab's with my 4 babes
saturday- facial?
phantom of the opera musical. YAY.
sunday- shopping?
church
dinner with jeremy
okay. on the top of my priorities are to meet wes and errol and james too before they go in too.
crap i cant remember who else. don't know what i buy my organiser for.
cant even remember what im suppsoed toooooooooo do and who to meet.
i think benji wes errol and james are most important so ya (:
but HE knows he's most important! (:

i want MY husband to be to bring me to sit on that huge ferris wheel
so that i can tell my children about it next time.
you know, i think i really wanna get married
but then again the thought of committment scares me
BUT THEN AGAIN i don't wanna be lonely
BUT THEN AGAIN my husband really needs to be like my dad.
tho dad's ignoring me now. he's smart. haha. whenever i say something silly
he doesnt even bother looking at me.
i asked mum for a credit card even tho i told myself i would give her my atm
guess her answer?


sigh. i have no idea what im supposed to do now.