you did it to yourself.
you told yourself you couldn't and wouldn't.
you thought you were safe hiding behind him.
but you were not.
you refused to admit whatever it was you felt because of your pride.
you let your guard down just cause you thought you were friends.
and now look at the state of your oh so vulnerable heart.
what kinda silly girl ever has a serious crush without knowing till something happens.
and all i can say is this, you have only yourself to blame.
its mean to laugh at you but i am.
really. you brought it all upon yourself.
now your world is turning all just because you let yourself have emotions.
the safe world you created and the wall you hid behind is gone.
and i suggest you start building it up again.
stop playing those games with yourself and just listen and let go.
or you can hang on a little till he leaves you.
whatever it is, remember to detach yourself before its too late.
i know you can do it. even if this is a little more serious than you intended.

her comments made my heart sink.
literally.
i've not felt this way for a long time since will.
oh well. looks like i need to learn again how to numb myself.
and i will. the effect has already started (:


3 more days of school.
im gonna miss all of them ):
i guess everyone has to move on and part.
and that's the part i hate ):

no pics today. sorry (:

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