you really disappoint me.
i only thank God nothing happened.
i don't believe you are like this now.
or maybe that was just you all along.
come on.
save your stupid lines for some girl who'll fall for them.
really. i have more brains than that DARLING.
seriously.
and keep your hands or whatever to yourself DEAR.
go grind some other bitch.

yeah as if the attention isn't enough.
i really don't need anymore scrutiny.
don't you have some other people to gossip about.
go on looking at us.
always wondering whether you'll ever be this way.
sorry. but we don't even have to try.
its innate.
either you got it or you don't.

thank you mummy for saying that he has a nice nose.
AS IF I DON'T KNOW THAT.
you know. i just can't get over the age thing.
seriously. i should get a grip.
you said that things would be totally different if not for the age.
i resent that.

and so. bible school starts tomorrow.
and ends 31st march.
whoopee doo.
i was just telling charlene my fears.
like what happens if i become like those people i dislike.
all the holier-than-thou attitude.
when their own lives are crap.

and then people will be judging me again.
and well. i guess. i get used to it.
may the best win - me.

the emptier i get, the more i shop.
yes. don't even think about the thousand and above that i just spent.
its not even funny anymore.
this week's gonna be pack full of activities.
i pray for strength.
thoery test on wed.
guess what? i havent started again. oh well. haha.

and after so long, i still love you.