HAPPY 41 BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE (:
cant say i really love this country.
but well, there're things to be proud of here.
like prata and chicken rice and PSA.

may i have a one inch sandwich?
yes that was what charlene ordered in subway.
and a dark brown cookie, the one at e bottom.
and yesterday she outdid herself by smacking herself on the head w much force.
HAHAHA.
only charlene lee shu ling can do that. what an air head.
and she dares to call me dumb.
the guy told us he could only wrap veggies in the bread. hahaha.
please? one inch? i think can only stuff one olive there.

and the BK guy gave me my drink and my mushroom swiss.
"that's all m'am" and he raises his eyebrows repeatedly.
where the hell are my fries?! hahahaha.
and he didnt realise tho i stared at him for so long.
how dumb can pple get?
a meal w/o fries?
maybe its his first day working there.
HAHAHA. no fries.
lalala.

went to get my slippers today.
WHEEEEEEEEE.
the crowd was horrid.
phew. it was hard getting out.
charlene and i nearly died.
and guess what? as always, we have to meet some perv on the train.
he was staring like he never see girls before?
and he burped in charlene's face. wahaha.
talk about manners.
some pple are just uncouth.
and he kept looking out for us even after we moved cabin?
he gives a new meaning to the word deprived.

ah gong's birthday was fun.
i love chinese restaurant food.
except that its always seafood with exactly one dish of chicken, 1 dish of duck and 1 dish of noodles.
i mis zheng yi and shu min and bel LOADS.
but bel wasnt there ):
shu min looks uber skinny. told her i'l give her my fats.
zheng yi finally wore contacts. YAY.
i love it.
i miss them all. (:
and i LOVE ah gong and amah.

charlene,
please do not care about him anymore.
cos u seriously do not deserve this sorta thing.
this is the worst ive seen u get treated.
and its so unfair. you and i know why.
you know that its not as if there's no one out there.
u are just stubborn.
or maybe unrealistic (like me).
whatever it is, know that i am always here.
everystep. well and heavenly father too.
he understands best.

now i know how u'll look like on ur wedding day.
and i don't deny u look good.
what can i do but observe from the aisles.
on that day that u walk down. w a girl in hand.
and on her fourth finger a wedding band.
maybe one day i'l be that girl.
YEAH RIGHT.
i dont know how i feel anymore. cos i think i have no more feelings.
squeezed dry of emotions. this year has been turbulent and emotional and painful.
i am too numb now. all i want is the sea. and you.

seeing so many look alikes of you back here.
receiving that same jolt of shock.
as time goes by, i think i made you up.
i no longer believe in dreams and you.
i want to. but i dont wanna go on this way.
cos its tiring. and so, in my mind, u're just a fantasy i created.
til i see you once more