no one would have expected that pang of pain
neither could anyone feel that pierce
it was so sudden. shocking me.
i guess im stil not over it am i?
we talked to her about men.
and i mean men.
not your average kiddy guys of age 18.
and well, i conclude that once again i can only say that im too childish?
my thinking isnt mature enough and yes i know i am selfish.
i wanna get married to the pen guy. haha. or any other random guy.
cos i do not wanna study.
age to me is but a number.
i dont get how some pple can take it as such serious stuff.
well as i said, im stil childish.
i only wish i were ten eyars older. or maybe 12.
that'd be just nice.
i know im stil living in some fantasy land with happily ever afters.
cos thats all im thinking about now.
my happily ever after.
call me childish. its fine with me.
cos one day i'l grow up. then i'l finally understand.
why u thought of things in that light.
why u were so bent on the age gap.
i am a mere teenager now. stil in that phase of growing up and trying new things.
forgive me for that. but for now, i guess its time to say goodbye.
i know i cant.
i think i shld try liking a church guy. *watch me puke.

friday studying with the pr gang was well as u know. hahaha.
full of lame jokes and embbarrassing pple (farah)
hahaha. but it was fun. we havent met up (All of us together) in such a long time
and i miss those crazy dodos so much.
mel's getting video!
can i just kill her!
yeah yeah. mad's bday on wed. i can't wait(:

lets run away and get married.