missing someone.

kuk is home. i just found out its spelled k-u-k. not k-a-k. heh. i didnt know i would miss her so much. we sent her off at e airport yesterday. i teared at first. and then i cried. i really didnt expect him to cry. and those who know me well enough know that i dont often cry. well, except over w and when im really really really angry. and well, i cried. all the way home. even when i reached home. bea cried too. mum teared. and ya. i dont even know why i feel so sad. so empty. i guess its this emptiness. someone whose presence u're so used to. gone. and u know u most probably wont ever see her again. mum wants her back but i dont think its possible cos of her family. i think im just so used to her bustling around the house, doing stuff w/o complaining and taking care of wei tho he's so irritating and tiring. i know she's just a maid and all, but i think im so used to her. its like she's an external family. and in a sense, she's my sister. in christ. im sad. im stil sad. i cant take it. im aching. wierd huh. i think thats just the way people are. when someone is around, they take that person for granted, but when the person is not, u realise how much u treasure them. but. we dotn learn from that mistake. in the end, we stil make that mistake over and over. i know ive made that mistake a lot. and im stil making it. i never learn.
u know, all this makes me think. about how i wanna treat people. cos u never know when its the last time. at least this time, i knew she's going home. but in future, i dont wanna ever regret. oaky nevermind.

im falling for you over and over every single day.