whale.

i feel strangely sad and lost. cos all at once, im thinking of that yellow shirt i saw when i drove past church that day. im thinking of whale. i dont feel anything at all. nothing. but i somehow.. i dont know why im thinking again. i just wonder at times if everything was real, if everything happened. cos it seems like a lifetime ago. we're like two strangers now. i dont get it. like when i look at his messages, it seems as tho another person sent it not him. and strangely, everything has some link to him. and i cant take it. i cant stand it. i've already moved on long ago. seriously. i jsut cut off whatever was left. i even left youth service. i stopped all communication. hahaas. i dont know. i dont know. i dont kno. im being crazy again.

i think im going out with mel tmr. big hooray! yay! whoopee. hahaas. i love that girl to bits. but too bad farah not around. her phone is off. humphhh. i miss her and jong and sab and mad. v logn never see them alr!