everyone's moved on.
once again, i find myself still standing there.

THIS IS GONNA BE A VERY LONG POST CAUSE IM VERY BORED

being forced to stay at home for a meal a day
has made me think a lot.
mostly of what's going to become of me when i go overseas next year.
yes, i think its mostly confirmed and so im not gonna talk about it as tho i might be a possibility.
haha that is unless ALL the unis there don't accept me.
which i guess is highly unlikely..
and unlike what you all think, i am most definitely not looking forward to it.
what am i to do without all my girls and family looking after me?
well at least i get to say goodbye to the weirdo guys of singapore.. haha.
not that it matters anymore cause ive my own bodyguard to look after me.
so, there in wonderland, i have no bestie.
and i have no bodyguard.
but he's much much more to me than that laa. haha.
i have NOTHING.
and i am so not willing to have something there..
i am obviously not willing to find a new guy despite what everyone says.
and everyone knows that bestfriends can't be replaced.
i know ill enjoy myself there after awhile and that its a lifelong dream of mine blah blah
BUT things are different now.
im not willing to put everything on hold here.
and what am i to do without my dear MISS LEW there?
no GODly advice and wisdom straight from up above.

okay i changed my mind about a long post cause im getting bored now too.
haha.
i think i've the attention span of a baby.
i have to constantly remind myself im 18, not 8.
though i'd give anything to be 8 again,
cause when you're 8, you don't have to think about guys and studying.
and you don't have to think about friends.
and you only have to worry about looking nice.

what will become of us?