so i was packing my room on sunday night.
and i suddenly reflected on my life these past 5 months.
which was quite a sobering thought in the middle of the night.
i thought about how even more materialistic and shallow ive become.
and the thing is, i don't think its horrible to be like that anymore.
i thought about how rude ive become to guys i dont wanna be bothered with.
and how i just ignore some people i know on the streets cause i just dont care
and i thought about how much my goals have changed..
i looked at some stuff i wrote down at the start of the year.
but i didnt cry. haha. don't worry! (:
those who know me know i absolutely detest crying.. ):
yeah, its sad looking at how hard i tried at the start..
i wonder what happened, how i ended up like this halfway.
i remember my goals for agreeing to go to tl.
at least i achieved half of it, the part about forgetting will.
as for the other half of my goal, i ended up at the other extreme.
and, i remember telling steph about the most impt thing i learnt at tl.
that not everything revolves around the surface, the appearance.
but strangely, i now put it high above the other things that were also once impt.

charity said yesterday that im not all i appear to be.
that its a whole other person inside..
which is hopefully true..
cause i dont know if anyone would accept me if i continue this way.
haha. yesterday with her was hilarious.
and driving was not traumatising. tho maybe i traumatised my instructor.
hahaha. but oh well. he's paid for it. and i cant help wanting to drive fast.
like tortoise man, the car, i think even my tortoise can run fster!
not that i have one.. (a tortoise)
gulp. have to go for class soon.

i am gonna try to blog 4 times a week!
so that next time when im old and wrinkled, i can read through it with my husband and laugh at myself (:
but.. im lazy.. and i will try to put more pictures (:
so that everyone can enjoy my BEAUTIFUL face.. right husband?
hahaha. byeeeeeeeeeee.
im meeting steph and dajie later and then someone else at night (:
yippee.

love, bern (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(: