i don't know why, everytime someone mentions her
my heart stops.
really stops and starts to hurt.
like a will hurt kinda pain.
this wasn't supposed to be in the plan.
and i was not supposed to feel this roller coaster of feelings.
its unfair ):
everytime i see her face, it pricks me.
and its painful.
oh, im not lesbian.. haha. YET. KIDDING.

*abra finally agreed to buy the crabs for an early birthday present. I LOVE HIM.