im sorry for cancelled appointments and for the appointments i forgot about. haha.
and im sorry that i couldnt make it for some meetings too!
it was all my organiser's fault!
the pages were filled with nonsense and i simply didnt know where i was supposed to go.
then i would suddenly remember i had to meet this or that.
oh well! NEXT TIME.
i fell sick on monday and tues and so there was some time lost too! (:
SO I AM VERY SORRY.
i know i can be quite scatterbrained at times.
and i will try to remember everyone i am supposed to meet.
except that some are in army already so, well, see you in awhile i guess..

i spent time at home and with mum on monday and tues.
felt so relaxed! like not running around here and there like some headless chicken!

met my band people last sat and on fri and today!
WHEEE (:
love them all. it brings back so many memories!
it almost feels like 2 years ago.
and im really happy that we're like this again!
okay crap. wanted to put their pictures but my com simply has no space ):

i agreed to myself that i would walk into this with both eyes open
that i would go to both extremes
and that nothing would happen to my carefully balanced world
instead i find myself deeper than i ever wanted
and sometimes i really don't know what i am doing.
i lead myself on.
i no longer know if i am playacting or if its really what i wish for.
im simply in too deep
so help me somebody, before the nightmare repeats

and well. he's doing fine!
i talk to him every night (:
you don't need to call if you're too tired you know, i feel so bad.
haha. i am writing this for you cause you said you wanna read my blog when you're out!
and of course, i still pray for you. every single day (:
so you have one promise left to fulfil for me
haha. that is to hunt down the GUY with your rifle.
but its okay laa, he hasnt been bugging me (:
tho there's still the wood stalker. so scary!
okay 13 days! YIPPEE.

sometimes, i think i really don't need the attention and scrutiny and gossip.